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Pardon my French, but the beginning of 2013 has inspired me to look back at my 2012 and see what lessons I have learned.
Wow. My life has taken so many twists and turns in the past year that it's hard to keep track of them. I parted ways with my first literary agent and tearfully shelved my first novel. I wrote a new (better) novel, and I scored a new (better) agent. I became an aunt, and I felt my life shift so profoundly in response that I made the decision to say goodbye to the relationship, friends and job I loved in Colorado.
What do I have to show for it? Right now, I'm in the foggy, transitional time between here and there. My life in Colorado has drawn to a close, but my life in Florida has barely just begun. I am surrounded by friends and family and people I care about, but I have no idea what lies ahead of me.
Will I score a book deal this year? Will I find the perfect day job?
Most importantly, will I rebuild the pieces of my life into something I can be proud of?
I don't know. I sure hope so.
Which leads me to my post title: this shit is hard. The writing, the living, the loving... The thriving and not just surviving. The blazing of trails, the pursuit of our destinies. Because at the end of the day, we may have NOTHING to show for it.
But, you know what? Maybe we WILL have something to show for it. And we will never, ever know if we are too afraid to take the plunge and surrender ourselves into the hands of fate. Because as the quote says:
"We all go through rough times and disappointments in our lives, but realize that we are all in the midst of creating our own story of triumph through the decisions we make and the actions we take every time life knocks us down.
It is in attempting to reach our dreams that we develop the necessary skills and mentality to overcome any roadblocks that lie ahead of us.
Never let a moment of defeat define your life's outcome.
No matter how many failures you've had, you still have it in you to create the greatest comeback story of your life.
Until you run out of pages, there is still room to write an epic ending."